It happened again....

I awoke from a nightmare last night and couldnt move my body as hard as I tryed. Me legs and arms felt like they were paralyzed, and my vision was very blurred...i couldnt lift myself up from my bed which is such a scarey feeling...It took me about a minute to get out of that state before getting back to normal. This is one of the few side effects that sometimes occur when I'm lucid dreaming.

I can't recall the whole nightmare before I woke up, just the end where I relized I was dreaming. I was in the living room of the house I stay at when going to college. I was just sitting on the couch when I heard my dog barking from my bedroom. I got off the couch and started walking to my room and then stopped and said to myself "wait Louie (my familys dog) shouldn't be here." I realized then I was in a dream. Thats when things got intense and I ran into my room and there where crazy lights all over the place, and then I looked down at my couch and there was a scary figure laying down on it and made a horrible sound, and then I woke myself up. Thats when I layed in my bed not able to move...

That side effect does not happen to me often. There is another side effect that happens alot more. The side effect is sometimes when I wake up from a dream or nightmare I will see a quick hallucination of either a image or a sound. I read up on this and it happens to lucid dreamers because the dream will be so intense and real like that when you wake up quick it takes a little bit to adjust to being awake which sometimes causes hallucinations. That can also be scarey.

A example of an hallucination that happend to be earlier this school year was I woke up and saw a lady all white, with white hair, and a white dress walk along my bed. I layed In my bed just watching her as she slowley disapeared...This only lasted for about 5 seconds but I was completley awake....

 

Crying For the Moon

I feel like I'm stuck inside an episode of a tv show from my childhood that no matter how hard I try i can't remember....I think I threw off the balance of the world 7 years ago and now I'm cursed....Sometimes I have dreams/nightmares when I blink....I try so hard to remember the smell of the air I use to breath in so long ago....

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“I don’t know, I guess I just feel unsatisfied that’s all…Crying for the Moon”

“What?”

“It’s a saying my mom use to tell me. You see I don’t have anybody left to fight here; I’ll never be able to figure out who I am. But if I went back to demon world I would miss everybody…my mom, Keiko, hell even Kuwabara’s ugly mug.”

“Now where does the moon come into this?”

“That’s what the saying means; no matter what you have you’ll always want what’s out of reach, you’re crying for the moon.”

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